thought of the day
Grant me the courage to change the things I cannot accept, and the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. Grant me the wisdom to hide the bodies of those people that I had to kill today because they pissed me off, and help me to be careful of the toes I step on today as they may well be connected to the ass that I will have to kiss tomorrow.
- from Dr. Pan’s office wall
blasted with sighs, and surrounded with tears
Hither with crystal phials, lovers, come,
And take my tears, which are love’s wine,
And try your mistress’ tears at home,
For all are false, that taste not just like mine.
Alas ! hearts do not in eyes shine,
Nor can you more judge women’s thoughts by tears,
Than by her shadow what she wears.
O perverse sex, where none is true but she,
Who’s therefore true, because her truth kills me.
- Twickenham Garden, John Donne
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the allure of the uncanny connection between heathcliff and catherine is so immensely powerful only because they can never be together.
to have is to cease to want.
love-hate
“There were days when I wanted to kill her. Not to split up, which would have been the reasonable solution, but to kill her, because our relationship was so intimate and so complex and in the end so vital that murder seemed easier than separation.”
- Alberto Moravia, on the stormy relationship with his wife.
i am nothing
Where would I go, if I could go, who would I be, if I could be, what would I say, if I had a voice, who says this, saying it’s me?
- Samuel Beckett, Texts for Nothing
on belief.
I must say, I have thought long and hard before starting on this piece. Writing about beliefs and religion is NEVER easy. And as i write, this might still never reach completion. Nonetheless, having read the long “debate” between Eric, on the side of the ‘Militant Atheist’, and the people who defend the validity of religion under Carol’s Facebook note, I was personally spurred to jarringly meld together some opinions of my own. This little piece of writing shall serve not to take sides, for it is my very premise that in an argument as such, professing to be ‘correct’ is unacceptable. This little piece subsist as a mere reflection of my vanity in thinking that somewhere, my opinion might interest someone. My SGD$0.02 worth, basically. Or 1.32 Yen, 0.66 Rupees, et al.
As a matter of clarification, let it be known that I am neither religious, nor am I a spirited atheist of the ilk of Eric. Religion interests me purely at an intellectual level, with such an interest primarily stemming from how much religion affects literature. Secondly, I do not claim to quote reliable statistics to back myself up, neither do I lay claim have a take on a higher truth. Any conception of the truth is, after all, inherently unstable.
I start by quoting J.M. Coetzee, who could not have accented it better:
I have no desire to associate myself with the people behind the Intelligent Design movement. Nevertheless, I continue to find evolution by random mutation and natural selection not just unconvincing but preposterous as an account of how complex organisms come into being. As long as there is not one of us who has the faintest idea of how to go about constructing a housefly from scratch, how can we disparage as intellectually naive the conclusion that the houseful must have been put together by an intelligence of a higher order than our own?
As a rule of thumb, one of the premises on which the scientific discipline operates is that what cannot be proven to be true, is untrue. Unfortunately, such a ‘rule’ has been elevated to into what Coetzee calls ‘epistemological axioms’, or in other words something close to a ‘universal truth’. Such a measure of validity has been advanced onto all accounts of life, above and beyond the discipline of science. It is one favourite argument of atheists, to argue that if you cannot see God, or if his existence cannot be proven, He does not exist.
I would like the militant atheists also to consider the possibility that we human beings do not even come close to comprehending the exact degree of complexity that the universe holds. In short, we know, and are capable of knowing, far less than we would like to know about how the world came to be and what kind of beings we are. It can therefore be said, that this is one yay for religion.
Nevertheless, the concept of Intelligent Design is still regarded very much as a creation myth, rejected in schools as a credible alternative to Evolutionism. Most schools do not even explore the theory of Intelligent Design alongside Evolution. Yet, as Robert Jensen, Professor of Journalism at the University of Texas and author of various books on this subject succinctly puts it, “intelligent design is not open to being tested experimentally and has no basis in science… (therefore) such treatment is not disrespectful of people’s religious beliefs, but simply intellectually honest.”
Playing the amateur sociologist, the functionalist theory with regards to religion holds that religion plays the important and much under-appreciated role of ensuring social solidarity and cohesion. Stretching the term ‘religion’, one could also take the communal fervour excited by events like concerts or football matches to mean that the very events themselves are somewhat religious. At least I know for me, I have idols to worship and rituals to follow when I watch Chelsea play. Lucky shirt on, beer always after chips. Religion, therefore, can loosely be defined as any such thing that evokes in one a belief in and of anything.
So, is not the fervent and ardent, not to mention collective belief that there is no God, or as Friedrich Nietzsche famously proclaimed, that “God is Dead”, in a sociological sense at least a religion? Quasi-religion, some may call it. My point is, that atheism and it’s beliefs in the absence of God as well as the fierce determination to prove themselves right has a lot in common with what we may call the traditional institutions of ‘religion’. Atheists hide behind supposed logic and reasoning, which I personally purport, because of the abovementioned elevation of scientific inquiry to the level of ‘common sense’, to be flawed. Is not a belief that science can magically provide all answers, even as we ourselves do not comprehend what we do not yet know, in itself a leap of faith?
I do personally believe, even if I am not myself a believer or religious by any consideration, that the very concept of religion is positive. While it is true that people throughout history and even today abuse religion for their own negative ends of violence, such as against those with contrary beliefs, or wrongful subjugation of certain groups of people like women, that itself is no fault of religion. The blame has to lie squarely at the criminal religious leaders.
So, live and let live. I hate the way some ‘evangelists’ have their tongues down my throat. Yet neither do I thus believe in the cause of the atheists. We all have different beliefs, and these beliefs contribute in no small part towards who we are, for better or for worse, whether or not it is huge and is institutionalised globally or it’s just some idiosyncratic OCD quirk. The religious people (in the traditional sense) have their gods, the militant atheists believe in overthrowing religion. And I believe in beer.
In the course of this rambling entry, I hope my other point has not been lost. It goes along the lines of: Don’t be complacent with whatever version of the truth you think is right. The very nature of truth is precarious, and whatever we know of everything is simply what everyone else accepts to be right.
We all have our lucky shirts, lucky underwear, et al. And I believe that when Chelsea win I must not brush my teeth for that particular night, for good luck. The whole world tells me I’m disgusting, but I simply shrug and move on.
we’re all victims.
Thus the thing began. Had she perceived this meeting’s import she might have asked why she was doomed to be seen and coveted that day by the wrong man, and not by some other man, the right and desired one in all respects—as nearly as humanity can supply the right and desired…In the ill-judged execution of the well-judged plan of things the call seldom produces the comer, the man to love rarely coincides with the hour for loving. Nature does not often say ‘See!’ to her poor creature at a time when seeing can lead to happy doing… in the present case, as in millions, it was not the two halves of a perfect whole that confronted each other at the perfect moment; a missing counterpart wandered independently about the earth waiting in crass obtuseness till the late time came.
- Thomas Hardy, in Tess of the d’Urbervilles
he really said that
on MM lee:
“During Lee Kuan Yew’s triumphant visit to Malaysia he made it known to the Malaysian supplicants that Singapore regards the lands within 6000 miles radius of Singapore as its hinterland. This includes Beijing and Tokyo and of course Malaysia… Of course this self-deluding perception places Singapore at the centre of a vast region. It is therefore the latter day Middle Kingdom. The rest are peripheral and are there to serve the interest of this somewhat tiny Middle Kingdom… I have a lot more to say about this little Emperor but I will reserve it for later. “
on malaysia’s own PM:
“The great 5th Prime Minister has decided that since the people of Johore did not want to sell sand to Singapore, Malaysia would not build any bridge, straight or crooked, or negotiate and settle the other issues like the Central Provident Fund, the Railway land. Maybe the 5th Prime Minister thinks he is punishing Singapore. Actually he is giving Singapore what its wants including the 3 sen per 1000 gallons water until 2061. Think of how many grains of nasi lemak we can buy with 3 sen in 2061. Imagine what 1000 gallons will earn for Singapore at that time. Can’t think of a more astute PM for Malaysia.”
lol
- from the blog of dr mahathir mohamed.
on water and rebirth
Heraclitus, who lived around 500 B.C., composed a number of adages, called his ‘apothegms of change”, which tell us that everything is changing at every moment, that the movement of time causes ceaseless change in the cosmos. The most famous of these sayings is that one cannot step into the same river twice. He uses a river to suggest the constantly shifting nature of time: all the little bits and pieces that were floating by a moment ago are somewhere else now and floating at different rates from each other.
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on the same topic, also by Foster:
In Toni Morrison’s Song of Solomon, Morrison has Milkman Dead get wet three times. First he steps into a small stream while searching for gold in a cave, then he’s given a bath by Sweet, the woman he meets on his trip into his past, and then he swims with Sweet in the river… The first time he goes into water, he steps into a little steam he’s trying to cross, but since he’s just starting out, the experience only begins to cleanse him. He’s still after gold, and characters who seek gold aren’t ready for change. Later, after much has happened to change him gradually, he is bathed by Sweet, in a cleansing that is both literal and ritual. Of equal, importance, he returns the favour and bathes her. Their intent is clearly not religious; if it were, religion would be far more popular than it is. (lol)
quote-unquote
“Most of what matters in our lives takes place in our absence.”
- Salman Rushdie
hmm.
That night, in bed, the three of us lay still. We were full of awe and respect for Pecola. Lying next to a real person who was really ministratin’ was somehow sacred. She was different from us now – grown-up-like. She, herself, felt the distance, but refused to lord it over us.
After a long while she spoke very softly. “It is true that I can have a baby now?”
“Sure,” said Frieda drowsily. “Sure you can.”
“But… how?” Her voice was hollow with wonder.
“Oh,” said Frieda, “somebody has to love you.”
“Oh.”
There was a long pause in which Pecola and I thought this over. It would involve, I supposed, “my man,” who, before leaving me, would love me. But there weren’t any babies in the songs my mother sang. Maybe that’s why the women were sad: the men left before they could make a baby.
Then Pecola asked a question that had never entered my mind. “How do you do that? I mean, how do you get somebody to love you?” But Frieda was asleep. And I didn’t know.
just when you thought thai politics could not be weirder
A maverick Thai general who has threatened to bomb anti-government protesters and drop snakes on them from helicopters has been reassigned as an aerobics teacher, the Bangkok Post said on Friday.
Major-general Khattiya Sawasdipol, a Rambo-esque anti-communist fighter more commonly known as Seh Daeng, reacted with disappointment to his new role as a military instructor promoting public fitness at marketplaces.
“It is ridiculous to send me, a warrior, to dance at markets,” he said, before launching an attack on his boss, army chief Anupong Paochinda. “The army chief wants me to be a presenter leading aerobics dancers. I have prepared one dance. It’s called the ‘throwing-a-hand-grenade’ dance,” he said.
a brave old world
“in 1882, Congress (of America) passed an act prohibiting the immigration of three classes of people into the United States for 10 years: lunatics, idiots, and Chinese.”
quote of the (past few) day(s)
“when life gives you lehmans, make lehmanade.”
come on, come on.
the past week and a half has gone by at manic speed. i heard the sound of deadlines and tests roar by, i’ve had results and essays thrown back at me, i’ve partied hard and drank hard and studied hard and before i could catch my breath there’s only a month or thereabouts left to the finals.
i recall the genuine joy at picking apart shakespearean texts. and i had the same feeling again last night. not that i could afford not to care about all my other modules, but i only dearly want lit to give as much loving back to me.
…All of our waste which we dumped on her and which she absorbed. And all of our beauty, which was hers first and which she gave to us. All of us – all who knew her – felt so wholesome after we cleaned ourselves on her. We were so beautiful when we stood astride her ugliness. Her simplicity decorated us, her guilt sanctified us, her pain made us glow with health, her awkwardness made us think we had a sense of humor. Her inarticulateness made us believe we were eloquent. her poverty kept us generous. Even her waking dreams we used – to silence our own nightmares. And she let us, and thereby deserved our contempt. We honed our egos on her, padded our characters with her frailty, and yawned in the fantasy of our strength.”
the same lines again…
Anomie, then, is the peculiar disease of modern industrial man, for it is accepted as ‘normal, a mark of moral distinction, it being everlastingly repeated that it is man’s nature to be eternally dissatisfied, constantly to advance, without relief or rest, towards an indefinite goal‘.
- Downes and Rock
A minute holds them, who have come to go:
The self-denied, astride the created will.
They burst away; the towns they travel through
Are home for neither birds nor holiness,
For birds and saints complete their purposes.
At worst, one is in motion; and at best,
Reaching no absolute, in which to rest,
One is always nearer by not keeping still.
- Thom Gunn
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quote-unquote(s) by the violent one
“I’ll wait for you outside, mate” Scolari books a date with a referee who ordered him from Brazil’s bench in 2000.
“He was going to hit [Ricardo] Quaresma and I defended him” – pugilist Phil stands up for his players by thumping the Serbian defender Ivica Dragutinovic in a Euro 2008 qualifier last September.
“Who was to blame out there was the referee. Two metres offside!” - Scolari’s alternative reason for punching Dragutinovic.
“I’m not perfect. Everyone makes mistakes, and I lost my head here” – the suits from the Portuguese FA prise a confession from chastened Phil over the Serbian punch-up.
“If someone talks about my private life, for example, I’ll give them a good punching. I’m not interested in suing. I like to sort things out my way” – that sounds like a challenge for the British press.
“Jesus said we should turn the other cheek. Unfortunately, Figo is not Jesus Christ” – and nor did Jesus headbutt Mark van Bommel, as Luis Figo just had in June 2006.
“I believe firmly in astrology. Since I was a kid, the stars told me I was a winner” – he’s a Scorpio, by the way. The same as the Chelsea owner Roman Abramovich.
“When the ball goes to his feet it doesn’t cry. When it goes to my feet it cries” - the difference between Zinedine Zidane and Scolari.
“I don’t want this situation involving England because in two days during which I was not coach, I never agreed to anything, my life was invaded. My privacy was totally under siege” – the Sensitive One rejects England.
“I think Pele knows nothing about soccer. He’s done nothing as a coach and his analysis turns out to be always wrong. If you plan on winning a title, you do the opposite to what Pele says” – World Cup winner Scolari reveals the secret of his success.
how clinton can now win the race
So, the Democratic National Committee has bent the rules for Senator Clinton and effectively given her 87 delegates and Senator Obama 63 from two states that were not supposed to be counted. That gives Clinton a grand total of 1,580 pledged (more or less) delegates, and Obama 1,711. While, technically that still leaves Obama with “the lead,” there are 86 pledged delegates remaining to be awarded in Puerto Rico, Montana, and South Dakota. This means that Clinton can still pull it out if she picks up 153 percent of the remaining delegates, an improvement on the 181 percent she would have needed to pick up if not for the Michigan-Florida deal.
- David Swanson, from afterdowningstreet.
lol!
quote-unquote
“I’m not happy about the way the Chinese are treating the Tibetans because I don’t think anyone should be unkind to anyone else. And then the earthquake and all this stuff happened, and then I thought, is that karma? When you’re not nice that the bad things happen to you?”
- Sharon Stone
quote-unquote
“The most likely scenario for Hillary to become president, however: Barack Obama wins 54% of the remaining pledged delegates and 60% of undecided superdelegates, and Hillary shoots him in the face with her fake Hitler Gun, and then Al Gore becomes president again at the convention and she shoots him too, the end.”
LOL!
quote-unquote
from the april 25 issue of malaysian newspaper, the sun:
“seller of chocs laced with viagra faced with stiff sentence”
STIFF SENTENCE! LOL!